Dear Readers,
There is nothing. No help, no change, no direction. Nothing written in stone.
Just another waiting list. Another list and another long line of violent people waiting to get me back for trying.
There's a culture of people who hate you for trying. You get another job they sabotage that. You want unemployement, you are stalked. You get housing, your house is ransacked or burned down. You have a relationship, people pounce on your partner, you have kids, they will be kidnapped.
Im bold enough to try anyway in hopes for peace and a chance to get back on my feet despite the warning signs.
I wish that I could live in a world where opportunity lived in a great place of expectation. Where your prayers are answered and all is safe and beautiful.
But I don't
I'm on the street. Much of the happenings I don't see because I had a place to live and a car to drive. So now I'm without those things, I see everything. I hate living like this. I hate sleeping with one eye open, and looking over my shoulders. I hate that I have to sit and wait for the next big set up. Or major attack.
All I have now is another waiting list. And more days to burn while waiting for my name to be called.
Sincerely,
Help?!
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